There's been a lot of depressing blog posts lately, so I guess I'll join in.

Pretty cool stuff here. I'm talking about OneNote (it's a microsoft program). It's entertained me and kept me from working for an hour at least now, so I think that's pretty great.

I'm tired.

 
 

Hmm. I've been thinking about high school a lot lately, which makes sense 'cause I'm in it. But I've realized that I really don't have any true friends anymore. True friends support you, they want you to achieve your dreams, they're happy for you when you do. But my friends, I found out, don't do that, any of them. Like, the other day when I found out that I have the highest GPA in my grade. I'm excited, of course, because I want to graduate a year early and go to a really selective private liberal arts college. But when I tell my friends, they yell at me for bragging. I wasn't bragging, though! I was excited, and I thought that since they're my FRIENDS, they'd be excited for me too. But they weren't; instead, they stopped speaking to me. I don't really mind it. I don't NEED friends, I've lived without them before and perfectly well too. But it still hurts. It's like I can't be smart-I can't be fully me-around them.

 
 

Song of the day: hmmm. I don't remember if I've already said this, but "September" by Daughtry.

bah.

So I'm sitting in the car on my way to my friend's state crosscountry meet, and I remember that I have a blog. Cool, huh? So since I can't hack into any wifi network (the name of one that I tried is PiratesAmongUs, something I found ironic) and I can post from Microsoft word, (not to mention that I don't care enough to work on my AP essay like I should be doing), I decided to update this for like, the first time in months.

It's really not my fault, though! I've been busy. Crosscountry every night after school, marching band, AP class, and all……sleep is a thing of the past. So. I think ive lost all intelligent thought right now, 'cause I can't think of a thing to say. And you should be thankful ive got spellcheck because without it no one could figure out what im trying to say. Im tired. Really tired. Even though I got like 10 hours of sleep last night, im tired. The first marking period of school is over. I only have 15 (or 11) more of these left before college. Joy.

 

Mkay. I guess this'll have to count as blogging. I'm not making any promises about blogging sometime soon, but I might. Idk.

 

Song of the day: "Lucy" by Skillet (love this song! It's so sad!)

oh, yeah. i have a blog.

it's only been a week since school's started, but it feels like a couple months. i've practically forgotten what my house looks like in the daylight. i've got marching band, cross country, AP english, two languages, and i'm trying to have a life. which is all well and good, except for that i have to sleep, too. so im basically exhausted. most of the day, im walking thru life like im a zombie. these are supposed to be some of the best four years of my life, but it's only been the first week of my freshman year and at this rate, im not even going to remember most of it. oh well....i'll get used to it soon enough. i have to.

song of the day: "lost in this dance" by Lena Katina. (i love this song!)

i feel important (:

im in a poetic mood today--you know, one of those days where you can't stand the ordinary day-to-day events and just want to sit in a hammock and write poetry all day.

and one of my friends mentioned me in her blog!

i can't comment on her blog, so: hi! i feel special :D and i know what you mean, about most of what you said. i agree (:

i really want school to start, actually. i mean, it feels like it's almost started already, with all im doing: cross country and band and all. it'd let me see my friends more.

but at the same time, i dont want it to start, and i'm regretting all ive gotten myself into. the world's spinning too fast as it is and im trying to make it go faster because sometimes im scared of these words i love. poetry scares me sometimes; it's too real for me sometimes and sometimes i want to be "normal". i know it's a compromise and id lose so much, but sometimes im scared of depth; sometimes i just want life to be shallow.

so in honor of the shallow lifestyle, the song of the day is "Teenage Dream" by katy Perry

*sigh*

why can't i finish this stupid essay????

ugh, this is driving me crazy. i've been working on my AP english essay all summer. there's 3 weeks left of summer break and i haven't finished it yet.

i keep rewriting it. and re-rewriting it. and re-re-rewriting it. im so scared that i've just been lying to myself. i'm so scared that i might not actually belong in this class. yeah, i've been in advanced AP english classes for the past two years. but now im gonna be a freshman in an 11th grade english class. what if i can't keep up? what if we'vee been babied in my advanced class, and i'm really not that good of a writer at all?

i don't know. so even though this is just a stupid summer writing assignment, i want it to be perfect. i don't want to be the stupid freshman who really doesn't belong. idk. it's driving me crazy.

song of the day: "candles" by hey monday

yay yay yay yay yay!!!!:)

im gonna buy a guitar (:

that is all

oh, and band camp's sundaay. so bye for another week (:

band!!!! :D oh, yeah, and school.

band camp sunday!!!! yay! :D

and i got my school schedule:
1st hour: biology
ugh. i hate science. at least one of my bffs is in this class. and maybe i could sleep....

2nd hour: spanish 2
the spanish teachers are all terrible i've heard. i'll sleep, thanks.

3rd hour: AP lit
yay! english! this is gonna be mostly 11th graders and im a freshman. no sleeping here :|

4th hour: history
it'll depend on the teacher how much i hate this class. another slack-off hour probably.

5th hour: french 2
whee! i love french! and i love my teacher! this is a fun class :)

LUNCH: (torey, listen up and comment if u read this to tell me which lunch u have) 3rd lunch. late. and not with the one friend whose schedule i know.

6th hour: geometry
ugh. ugh. ugh. hate this class. will fail. ugh.

7th hour: BAND!!!!!! :D
YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! band!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

song of the day: if everyone cared by nickelback