i feel important (:

im in a poetic mood today--you know, one of those days where you can't stand the ordinary day-to-day events and just want to sit in a hammock and write poetry all day.

and one of my friends mentioned me in her blog!

i can't comment on her blog, so: hi! i feel special :D and i know what you mean, about most of what you said. i agree (:

i really want school to start, actually. i mean, it feels like it's almost started already, with all im doing: cross country and band and all. it'd let me see my friends more.

but at the same time, i dont want it to start, and i'm regretting all ive gotten myself into. the world's spinning too fast as it is and im trying to make it go faster because sometimes im scared of these words i love. poetry scares me sometimes; it's too real for me sometimes and sometimes i want to be "normal". i know it's a compromise and id lose so much, but sometimes im scared of depth; sometimes i just want life to be shallow.

so in honor of the shallow lifestyle, the song of the day is "Teenage Dream" by katy Perry

*sigh*

why can't i finish this stupid essay????

ugh, this is driving me crazy. i've been working on my AP english essay all summer. there's 3 weeks left of summer break and i haven't finished it yet.

i keep rewriting it. and re-rewriting it. and re-re-rewriting it. im so scared that i've just been lying to myself. i'm so scared that i might not actually belong in this class. yeah, i've been in advanced AP english classes for the past two years. but now im gonna be a freshman in an 11th grade english class. what if i can't keep up? what if we'vee been babied in my advanced class, and i'm really not that good of a writer at all?

i don't know. so even though this is just a stupid summer writing assignment, i want it to be perfect. i don't want to be the stupid freshman who really doesn't belong. idk. it's driving me crazy.

song of the day: "candles" by hey monday

yay yay yay yay yay!!!!:)

im gonna buy a guitar (:

that is all

oh, and band camp's sundaay. so bye for another week (:

band!!!! :D oh, yeah, and school.

band camp sunday!!!! yay! :D

and i got my school schedule:
1st hour: biology
ugh. i hate science. at least one of my bffs is in this class. and maybe i could sleep....

2nd hour: spanish 2
the spanish teachers are all terrible i've heard. i'll sleep, thanks.

3rd hour: AP lit
yay! english! this is gonna be mostly 11th graders and im a freshman. no sleeping here :|

4th hour: history
it'll depend on the teacher how much i hate this class. another slack-off hour probably.

5th hour: french 2
whee! i love french! and i love my teacher! this is a fun class :)

LUNCH: (torey, listen up and comment if u read this to tell me which lunch u have) 3rd lunch. late. and not with the one friend whose schedule i know.

6th hour: geometry
ugh. ugh. ugh. hate this class. will fail. ugh.

7th hour: BAND!!!!!! :D
YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! band!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

song of the day: if everyone cared by nickelback