Sunday, December 5, 2010

There's been a lot of depressing blog posts lately, so I guess I'll join in.

Pretty cool stuff here. I'm talking about OneNote (it's a microsoft program). It's entertained me and kept me from working for an hour at least now, so I think that's pretty great.

I'm tired.


Hmm. I've been thinking about high school a lot lately, which makes sense 'cause I'm in it. But I've realized that I really don't have any true friends anymore. True friends support you, they want you to achieve your dreams, they're happy for you when you do. But my friends, I found out, don't do that, any of them. Like, the other day when I found out that I have the highest GPA in my grade. I'm excited, of course, because I want to graduate a year early and go to a really selective private liberal arts college. But when I tell my friends, they yell at me for bragging. I wasn't bragging, though! I was excited, and I thought that since they're my FRIENDS, they'd be excited for me too. But they weren't; instead, they stopped speaking to me. I don't really mind it. I don't NEED friends, I've lived without them before and perfectly well too. But it still hurts. It's like I can't be smart-I can't be fully me-around them.


Song of the day: hmmm. I don't remember if I've already said this, but "September" by Daughtry.


  1. I'm sorry you have to go through this- I constantly am. Just remember that your true friends are out there- if not in person, then on Sparknotes.
    I think it's really cool how you have the highest GPA. What do you want to go to a liberal arts school to study?

  2. It's always hard to be the smartest person in the room. You will always be envied and mistrusted. BUT it's not unlike being the prettiest or the most talented, either.

    Now that you've learned this lesson, go out of your way to congratulate the next person who gets an award, who wins first chair in band, who makes the cheerleading squad, who gets the lead in the school play.

    In a couple of years, you'll be around a lot of people who are smarter than you and you'll miss the old days.

  3. I'm sorry about this. ):

    But it's just a phase.

    I'm lonely, tired, and frustrated too, but we just have to do our best.

    Hang in there. (: